It’s been a while since
I’ve posted on here but I am finally ready to share this news & I felt like
this was the perfect place to do it so I can have it documented in a permanent
place. I am not posting this to get attention by any means I just need to get
it off my chest!
This all happened about 3
months ago. I found out I was pregnant (8 1/2 weeks to be exact). I had taken 2 pregnancy tests just to be 100% sure, both of which were
positive & life was great Adam & I were both thrilled! I wanted to wait a while until I was further
along to share the news with family & friends. I woke up a few days later
& I had begun to bleed. I didn't get too nervous but thought I would just
wait it out a few more days to see if it would stop. Three days later I was
still bleeding super heavy so I made an appointment with my doctor & had a
pregnancy test ran/lab work done. The test came back negative & the labs
showed that i was indeed having a miscarriage. I was devastated!! Now I wasn’t going to be able to announce a
pregnancy but i was going to need to tell family that I was going through a
miscarriage! The bleeding continued a few more days & then I started
cramping for a few more days after that. I wasn’t going to tell lots of
people about this due to its very personal nature but I have had way to many
people lately telling me that I should already be pregnant because my kids
won’t be two years apart anymore or that I needed to have more kids asap. Each
& every time my heart breaks & it’s like the wounds are re-opened
again!! I wish so bad I was still pregnant & that a baby would be joining
our family in June but there is not & I have finally come to
terms with that! I absolutely hate to feel needy or talk to people about personal
issues, especially ones very near & dear to my heart. This miscarriage made
me broken! I know that I could have done a better job of seeking out support or
someone to talk to (especially family-mom, sisters, etc) but at the time, it
hurt too bad. I would recommend anyone who has a miscarriage find someone to
talk to, don’t bottle it up inside like I did! You are not alone-others have
experienced the same thing. In the very beginning I didn’t tell many people about the miscarriage.
I told immediate family & my best friend. I guess I was just scared of
breaking down & crying in front of others when telling them. I took this picture from a
friend who also went through a similar experience. It really tells it like it
is.
Thanks to everyone who has
helped me push pass this trial in my life & become a stronger person! I am
also grateful that my testimony of the power of prayer has grown as I have
pleaded with the Lord to help comfort me & bring me back to my normal self. I have faith that Heavenly Father will help our family grow in His own time as for now we will patiently wait for that & enjoy every minute with our perfect family of three!!
