Long Day

Today has been a very long day! Yup, its my 5th day of waking up @ 4 am :( I dont know why it happens but it does at exactly 4:39am i am wide awake, luckily no tears the past 2 mornings! I slept through my phone alarm 3 times, so i woke up late. Worked from 9-1. Looked everywhere for some bright& cheerful gerber daisies... finally found some @ tai pan after an hour of searching. On my way home i almost had my car window shattered. (stupid truck driver!!) Made a gerber daisy bouquet to put on my friends grave for her b-day today (Happy Birthday Mandy Johnson, I love you & miss you lots!) Went to the Kim, Trev's & Tates with Sky & Marie to watch Tristian & Isolde, pretty good movie... sad ending. Played NERTZ (a freaking fun card game), & had a blast! What an eventful day, if only i could go to sleep right now...

Normal?!

Is it weird that i have woken up from a (semi) sad dream about a guy @ exactly 4 am the monday morning & tuesday morning in tears? It wasn't just a few tears, my pillow was pretty wet & i was breathing kinda funny (like people do when they cry extremely hard & they can barely catch there breath)I dont know whats up but i hope that when 4 am rolls around i am sound asleep with no tears! I guess part of this came true this morning rolled around & 4 am i was wide awake again!!!
So, side note....I found this quote tonight & it describes my feelings for the guy i dreamed about...... (i know its prob too early to say this but its my honest feelings)

Weekend Fun

This weekend i took my sisters & 2 of their friends up to the boy's basketball state playoff games @ UVU. We got up there Friday & played Wasatch, it was a very intense game, but we lost in the last quarter because of the ref's. I mean seriously 28 fouls called on us vs. 9 called on them during the entire game! That seems quite unfair. But great job tigers for playing your best & winning today!! :) After the game to calm the girls down we went out for ice cream, Trev met us there & then went back to our relatives house to watch Baby Mama. It was such a fun night, thanks Trev for cheering up the girls & especially for making my weekend lots of fun :) I'm sad i had to leave & come home but i am excited to sleep in my own bed tonight :)

events i CAN'T wait for in march:

-The Bachelor, last 2 episodes :) go tenley... boo vienna!!
-Vegas trip with the fam March 11th-14th
-My 20th Birthday :) (i will no longer be a teenager...dang now i must grow up & act like an adult!)
-Vegas trip with Trevor March 18th-21st (if i'm still invited)
-My best friend Claire will be 20 on the 18th :) happy b-day! hope its a good one!
-Erin's Birthday on 29th

Provo

I wanted post something longer & way exciting but
instead this is basically my weekend in a nutshell....

i went up to Provo & spent the weekend with Trevor (& his family) :) Friday night i went to his soccer game & he got re-injured :( because of the stupid goalie! We watched some movies with his roommate & his girlfriend then with & his sister JaNae & her boyfriend, I slept over @ JaNae's apartment (by the way thanks!!) Spent lots of time with his family which was heaps of fun, & also with his cute nephew too, Camden is a handsome little guy. Went bowling with his whole family which was a blast. :) Basically his family is awesome & they are so funny! :) It was very sad to have leave Provo to come back home today but it had to end eventually :( oh & i decided that i really do hate the cold!! (snow especially!)

Vegas Baby!!

Welcome Home from your mission BRETT LANE LEAVITT!! The past 2 years went by so fast!! Friday- We (me, sky, marie, shayli & shauni) got to Vegas later in the afternoon & went straight to Brett's so we could see him!! After visiting with all the family there we went to Town Square with Brett. It was lots of fun! Saturday- Spent more time with all the cousins, went shopping with Sky & Marie. It was pretty fun! I got a call on the way home from the mall & it was Trevor (Rhonda's nephew) he asked if i wanted to go on a date with him later that night! It made my whole day to have him ask me out! We went on our date with my brother Sky & his girlfriend Marie, my cousin Brett & trevor's friend Meagan. We ate at Buffalo Wild Wings, (i must say i was kinda nervous to eat it there having never heard of it but Trevor swore by it so i decided to try it & not be scared! It is was pretty good i might add!) After eating we went bowling. Game 1 Trevor & Sky tied for 1st place with a score of 156. I felt bad though for Trevor, his shoulder was hurting him so bad but he kept bowling. :( What a trooper!! Game 2 after the first 2 frames of me & Trevor had knocked down the exact same number of pins so we decided we were gonna end the game with the same score! Even though we didn't win, the end score was Me: 74, Trevor 74. That takes some mad skill & of course me & trevor have it! :) Once we finished our games we headed over to his house to decorate some cookies his sister Meg had made for Valentines Day!

This is a picture of mine & Trevor's cookie! :) Isn't it just the cutest cookie ever!!!!
(I let Trevor pick the hearts cuz i frosted it, they say....call me, sweet pea, sweet love,my boo, my girl, me & you, you rock, love him, adore me, crazy 4U, & soul mate!)

Sunday- Slept @ Bretts again & then went to get ready with the rest of the family at Dax & Amy's. Church was at 1:00, Brett did an amazing job with his testimony & talk. Taralee, Shelise, Kyle & Ronnow sang, it was very beautiful!! :) Afterwords we visited with family & had some delicious lunch! That night Trevor invited me, my sisters & brett to go watch a movie later at his house. We watch Iron Man, a little bit of The Office, Hannah Montana, some tree cutting show, & Wizards of Waverly Places.
Monday- We woke up, got ready, hung around the house for a little while, said our goodbyes :( Then went shopping at the mall. I found 3 new shirts & a new dress! The twins found there preference dresses :) Then we headed home!! It was a quick trip back. I am very sad this weekend is over, now back to the real world. I can't wait til another weekend in Vegas!

This Is Me Dang It

So i just heard this quote & i love it!!! It's so what i want to say to a select few people!! haha
"There comes a time when you have to stand up & shout:

This is me dang it!

I look the way i look, think the way i feel, love the way i love!I am the whole complex package. Take me.... or leave me. Accept me.... or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because i don't fit your idea of who i should be & don't try to change me to fit your mold. If i need to change, i alone will make that decision. When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good & bad, you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you!" --stacey charter

& also tonight is THE BACHELOR!!! i so can't wait to see what happens tonight!!
(is it bad that i am so so addicted to it? well that my whole family is? it basically is fhe every monday night!!)

Jake Pavekla-- Bachelor 2010

So I must admit that i am 100% addicted to this seasons Bachelor. I haven't missed an episode yet!! Actually my whole family has become very faithful Bachelor watchers (even my dad & brothers haha) Since the very first episode i have already knew my favorite girls, least favorite girls & i have also picked my #1 favorite girl. About the girls left... (in order of Favorite to Least!)

Tenley

Tenley is the one i would pick if i were Jake, if he doesn't pick her he is just plan STUPID!! She is freaking gorgeous!! & She is like the only girl who isn't fake. She seems to be on the show for the right reasons....to find love & to be the right one for Jake. She is definitely here for Jake & not just to be on the show. She is the ONLY one who goes on dates with Jake & all that matter are the two of them!! She hasn't ever brought up any of the problems that are going on with the other girls @ the house.... (VIENNA!!!) Also being married previously i feel that she has more experience than any of the other girls & she deserves a husband who will treat her right!! :)

Ali

Ali is my 2nd favorite. She is a very pretty girl, & i like her. To say the least she hates Vienna but who doesn't? I have noticed that the past couple of times Jake has taken her for there 1 on 1, she has brought up Vienna in one way or another. It doesn't seem to me that she is all focused on the end prize as much as others may be! I just dont think she is completely right for Jake...

Gia

Gia is right there next to Ali, I like her but there is just some things that bug me, first of all she isn't confident at all.... In the last episode on her double with Vienna she kinda just hung back & didn't fit at all for Jake, she needs to be more confident cuz she is gorgeous! Second, her lips!! They are so so fake! It bugs me!! (My mom thinks when she smiles she looks like the Joker!!) She isn't right for Jake, they are 2 totally different people with different goals in life!!

Vienna

Vienna, i can pretty much describe my feelings for her in 5 words & 1 number! HATE HER, SHE IS 2 FACED! She just bugs the crap out of me!!! She acts completely different when she is with the girls in the house compared to when she is alone with Jake, & the dumbest thing about it is HE DOESN'T SEE IT & when others tell him about it HE JUST DOESN'T GET IT!!! I think if he picks her it will be the beginning of Hell for him!!

So question for all you avid watchers.... Is anyone else SO SO SO freakin upset with Jake for not illuminating Vienna at the last rose ceremony? (& after what she did on the last episode!!) She drives me completely insane!! I knew girls in high school like her & EVERYONE hated them, why can't Jake see who she really is, instead of seeing her as someone she is pretending to be!!

If Jake is STUPID & doesn't pick Tenley to be his wife, who votes she is next seasons Bachelorette?!